Actively wait!

"Actively wait... actively wait.."

This is one of the brother in my church told me..
Although this is jus two words, it gives me great impact..
the day before i receive this word,
I told God that I will be joyfully waiting for His time.
But that Sunday, I receive this word "actively wait"..
Active .. not passive..
this is a confirmation.
God wants me to wait for His time...
Time to reveal His way in my life..
I must be strong!!

I know only Jesus will accompany me to wait..
Yea.. Lord, my ministry starts now..
my ministry starts now!!
Even when things surrounding me get worse,
I will continue to raise the banner!!
I will support my Papa God!
To all my beloved friends, be faithful to God even when things turns bad..
Only one thing I believe, when our heart is right, God will surely open the way..
We must rise up now even when we know we are weak because... our time is short!

Praise the Lord!

I have facebook now!! haha.. like very big thing going on!!

Well tonight Chih san invited us for dinner. All the cell leaders and birthday girl la.. haha!
The food was very delicious...
The funny part is, no one talk when we were chewing the food!
All of us were so focusing on the food and we seems like so hungry.
We finish the food within 20 min... i think... hehe..

Tonight was fun..

One of my patient whom I was taking care of called me tonight.
She shared to me how God healed her and she was really joyful and praising the Lord!
When I heard about her testimony, I was really encouraged and touched...
When I recall back during the time i was taking care of her, I can tell you that she was really weak that time.

But today she had fully recovered! and she can walk at home and talk with me with great strength!
Actually, I really thank God about her sharing because it really encourage me a lot!
Honestly, I was a bit down this recently... I don't know why... just like lost my way...
I don't want to lost the fire where I had brought back from Surabaya and A4J..
I want to keep on fire for God and for the lost soul!
Guys, pray for me if you had read this blog... thanks so much!!

God Bless~

Keep strong!!

A very fine day
A very boring day
haha...
dunno how to describe!

dunno what to write oso..
a lot of feeling but hard to describe in black and white!

Haiz.., just have to be strong in everything.
Everyday... "Lord, make me strong!"
This is what I always said in my prayer...

Seems like very down but actually not... hehe..
keep strong, keep strong!!
Even when i get disappointed... I have to be strong..
Even when I miss the past.. i have to be strong...
Even when Im weak... I have to be strong...
Even when im tired of waiting... I have to be strong..
Haha... have to learn to stand firm!

okla.. dun wana say much...
That's all for today la...
don worry im not emo...
Im just writting blog!! haha...

A video clip

quite lazy to blog... but today i have something interesting for you all!! As usual, I have a mother heart!! haha.. you guys can call me mama patty patty... haha!! I really love my cell members so i have make a video clip for my cell group. Give some comment after watching this ya!!

How...how? nice? Hehe.. give some comment ya!!

At last Holiday!!

Yea! Yea! Finally I can go back to my hometown.... My lovely MIRI!!

I will be back this afternoon 3pm flight...

So, this few weeks I will not be blogging... haha
no internet line at home...

This time going back to have a good rest... In terms of physically and spiritually!!
I really pray that God will give me more revelations!

Praise Him!

Everything is meaningless...

Today I have seen a patient

She's a Malay and an old lady

Hehe... but honestly, she likes me very much

I dunno why... maybe im very cute! Well..

She has shared with me about her pass

Her husband is Tan sri and she is Datin

Very rich couple and own great possesion and big family...

But when she was sharing with me, I realised something...

Everything is meaningless...

Even how great is her pass and how famous and how rich she is,

There's only one thing I know...

She's now on bed, depending on oxygen mask on and off and even cannot walk.

Nobody know her name, nobody know her pass and even not much people came to visit her.

Im not trying to insult her but I love her...

I even prayed in my heart "Lord save her soul"

Today I really realised and deeply felt that it is not seeking the earthly thing but seeking the heavenly and eternal one...

Everything will pass away...

But only God's love will never fade away!

I will be the SOUL CATCHER! I will not see anyone to perish and this is the heart of our Father!

My heart grieves whenever I see people cannot walk, people cannot speak, talk, see or hear... people who is having cancer, leukemia and diseases!

They have been greatly seized by the Satan!

Oh God... Set them free!! set them free!!

Use me to set them free!!

This is really a sound of my heart...

God, revive the Book of Acts in my life!! Hallelujah!!

An Indonesian patient accepted Christ!!

To God be the Glory!! He is so wonderful.... He sets souls free!!

On 23rd June 2009... An Indonesian patient accepted Christ!

This sister has delivered a baby in Medan, Indonesia.
After delivering, she was having an acute bleeding due to some problem la...
Because of this, she was having an increase output and cause an heart attack...
Due to this incident she was admitted to my hospital for further treatment.
If not mistaken, she was in critical condition when she was admitted here.
During she was in the critical ward, she had collapsed twice but manage to survive again.
But her condition now is stable and able to walk.

On Monday, which is the first day of my work in cardiac ward, I met her in her room.
Then my friend told me about the history of this patient...
When I heard about her history, instantly my heart has a great burden and compassion on her.
I want to tell her that Jesus is the one who saved her life!
But I don't know how to approach her since her family is with her in her room from time to time.

When I get back home, I prayed for this woman...
I prayed with great compassion as i have never been like this before.

I told God "Give me chance to approach this sister and to tell and share with her about you! I really wanted to tell her that no other God but it is You who saved her life. TWICE!!"

The next day, in the afternoon, I tell you what.. God is so great! He listened to my prayer and also answered my prayer!

I went in to her room and she was alone inside... Wow this a great chance!
I chat with her about her life and so on... And I told her I knew her history in Medan.
Then I offer her a song "So You would come"

When I sang the song, God touched her and she was crying... But later her brother came in and I have to stop talking... man...
But after a while, she called me and asked me to sponge for her.
Wow, chance has come again!
This time only me and her were in the room.
I took this opportunity to tell her and share Gospel with her...

I said,
"Hey do you know Jesus? I just want to tell you that it is Jesus who saved your life (and I shared the gospel to her). I was praying for you when I knew about your history... I can't wait to tell you that Jesus saved your life and no other God! Listen to me, this is the most impostant thing I want to tell you... Satan want to grab your life to hell but God saved your life!"

She was crying while I was sharing with her... God really touched her heart!

Then I ask her whether she want Jesus and she say YES!!
Wow... I lead her into a prayer and she accepted Christ that day!

I want to lift up Jesus's name... He is so great! He set the captives free! Praise the Lord!